Not Much Flying for this Bee

Today has just been an ok day.  I have those every now and then.  Nothing spectacular is going on or no real circumstances for me to feel this way.  I am just down.  So what to do?

I have tried to keep myself busy.  If my body is not idle neither is my mind.  I have planned ahead youth activities for the church.  Menus for the week are done.  So there is only so much you can do before you drive yourself OCD crazy.

I have just faced the facts that it is ok just to have an ok day.  Nothing wrong with that.  I dont feel like doing or being much today.  There is this book I am reading  and the title is I'm Not Wonder Woman, But God Made Me Wonderful.  So today I am certainly not Wonder Woman but even though I cant or dont feel it right now, I know deep inside that God did certainly make me wonderful.  Bipolar and all!

Real Emotions for this Bee

  If everyone did only what they wanted to do nothing would get done.  Some people make decisions and sometimes very important ones based on how they "feel" at the time.  The Bible says that "a double minded man is unstable in all his ways."  So how can we depend on our own feelings.  This is something that I struggle with greatly, because I am a very emotional person.  My feelings change often and I have to keep them in check with what the Lord wants not what I want.

In the battle of life we must CHOOSE.  Choose to take medication because we know it is better for us than the alternative.  Choose to go to counseling because we know it will help out ourselves and our family.  Choose to exercise because we know it will help the depression and all over mindset, but I did not say the choice would be easy or likeable.  I don't often times like these things, but I know they are best for me.  We have to Choose to do what's right even when everyone else is doing wrong or telling us otherwise. 

Emotions have no intellect.  They connect themselves to whatever thought is taking place.  Like a speck of dust floating in the air and then finally landing on something.  One piece wont get to you, but you let it pile up and before long you have a mess.  Deal with your emotions in a positive manner.  Cry them out if you need too.  It's ok to have a good old fashion coming to Jesus meeting in your prayer closet.  That's what often happens is that we dont deal with the emotions as they come.

Choose to reject negativity.  Dont let Satan steal your joy.  I have before and may be there again some day but the other side is far better. 

What If or What Will for this Bee?

I got back in touch with an old friend today and it brought back many memories.  All very good ones, I might add, but it got me to thinking about what if's?  I live sometimes on the what if's?  What if I didn't have to live on pills because of the Bipolar?  What would life be like?  Been there done that not going back.  What if I could work a full time job again and not struggle with money?  God has me at this place in my life for a reason.  So I could go on and on with the what if's.  Many are very Big decisions in my life and some are very small, but I can't live on the what if's.  I have to accept each and every day as gift from God and live it to the best of my ability for Him.  Who knows what He has in store for me in the future, but in His word it tells us to be content.  So I accept my place in life at this time and strive to do His will each and every day that He gives me.  So not what if -what will?  What will I do with this time for Him?