I have begun to notice some things about being bipolar that are very frustrating. One is the short term memory loss. I can't remember anything. It becomes very confusing for my husband and I because things will just have happened and I can't remember them. We will watch a movie and I can't remember it later. Most of all it is frustrating when I try to memorize Bible scripture and I can't recall the things that I have studied or worked on.
Second is the getting out of my routine can be exhausting. I tell everyone routine, routine, routine is the best thing for a bipolar person. I may not have the best routine, but it works for me. I have been out of town for the last three weeks and out of my routine. It has been fun to go and do different things, but being out of my routine is very taxing on my body as well as my mind. As I come home from each of these weeks, I feel very exhausted as most people do, but I also feel mentally drained when I should have had fun. Not to say that I didn't have any fun, I did but I pay the price coming down off that mountain. It is like someone popped my balloon.
I know these are not major issues, but they are as my title says frustrating. I am sorry for not being like everyone else, but I am not. I am different and I have to deal with things differently. People don't understand that but this is who I am. God made me special in His way and I have to accept that even if no one else around understands that. I have to take care of me and I know what is best for me.
