A mask can be a tricky thing. It can be used for both good and bad. It disguises us into something else. I decided along time ago to stop wearing a mask. Now their are certain situations were I have to put one on for another person's well good or well-being, but for the most part I don't.
When we take our masks off, we can recognize each other's pain. We become transparent and yes sometimes vulnerable, but if it is to help someone else then why not. Isn't that what we are called to do?
I don't go around with a sign that says, "I am Bipolar." I do however share with those who ask or are going through a tough time. I share how far I have come by the grace of God. I can share my experiences. We go through things to learn from them and grow, and if I can make someone else's journey a little easier I will.
If I am struggling, I let my close inner circle of friends know so that they can pray for me. I am reading a book right now that sums it all up in the title. I'm Not a WONDER WOMAN but God Made Me Wonderful!
Monday, May 28, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Short Life of a Bee
I teach the teenage Sunday School class at our Church and the lesson is on making wise choices. Or that is the direction I am going! I always use the book as a basis, but I do my own thing. I am just crazy that way.
Anyway back to the lesson, I am using an object lesson that life is sooo short in the realm of eternity. It is like the Bible says a vapor. I am using a long rope and I have put a piece of duct tape on a short end of it showing that this rope represents our life, and the tape shows our life on this earth. The whole rope shows our life in eternity. I made each of them a small rope bookmark with a little piece of tape on it to remind them that the choices that we make here on earth are they worth it in the scope of eternity.
When I got to thinking about this, I thought about my Momma. She had such a short life, but now she is enjoying her true life in eternity and I can truly say her short little life was well lived. I know that the choices she made both for herself and for us as kids where for the honor and glory of the Lord.
On this Mother's Day, it is my prayer with a heavy heart that I can grow up and be like my Momma some day!
Anyway back to the lesson, I am using an object lesson that life is sooo short in the realm of eternity. It is like the Bible says a vapor. I am using a long rope and I have put a piece of duct tape on a short end of it showing that this rope represents our life, and the tape shows our life on this earth. The whole rope shows our life in eternity. I made each of them a small rope bookmark with a little piece of tape on it to remind them that the choices that we make here on earth are they worth it in the scope of eternity.
When I got to thinking about this, I thought about my Momma. She had such a short life, but now she is enjoying her true life in eternity and I can truly say her short little life was well lived. I know that the choices she made both for herself and for us as kids where for the honor and glory of the Lord.
On this Mother's Day, it is my prayer with a heavy heart that I can grow up and be like my Momma some day!
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Mother's Day for this Bee
This week every year you can bet I am going to get down. Losing my Mother at such an early age, it sees like I was robbed of so many things. I know as a Christian she is in a better place, but the selfish side of me wants her here. I have so many things to say and so many things I want her to see. I want her to see my niece get married. I want her to see how I am raising my kids like she raised me.
I know I shouldn't rob my boys from a blessing by being upset and down, but losing your Mom is horrible. She is my best friend, besides my husband. She was the most Godly woman I know. She never said an ugly word about anyone. (I needed to take more lessons!) She fought a good fight until the bitter end, but she was tired and ready to meet her maker. So with tears in my eyes and a very heavy heart I try to understand God's reasoning. I wouldn't want her back sick, but I would like just one more of those big special Nana hugs like only she should give.
So if you still have your Mother and you get to enjoy her through many long years cherish every moment. You just don't understand until she is gone what it is like to have something until she is gone. The Lord broke the mold when He made Nana. She was one of a kind. The best friend, Grandma, and Christian friend you could ever imagine. So Mom I love you and miss you terribly, I hope you have a Happy Mother's Day sitting at the feet of Jesus.
I know I shouldn't rob my boys from a blessing by being upset and down, but losing your Mom is horrible. She is my best friend, besides my husband. She was the most Godly woman I know. She never said an ugly word about anyone. (I needed to take more lessons!) She fought a good fight until the bitter end, but she was tired and ready to meet her maker. So with tears in my eyes and a very heavy heart I try to understand God's reasoning. I wouldn't want her back sick, but I would like just one more of those big special Nana hugs like only she should give.
So if you still have your Mother and you get to enjoy her through many long years cherish every moment. You just don't understand until she is gone what it is like to have something until she is gone. The Lord broke the mold when He made Nana. She was one of a kind. The best friend, Grandma, and Christian friend you could ever imagine. So Mom I love you and miss you terribly, I hope you have a Happy Mother's Day sitting at the feet of Jesus.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
When the Bee is in Trouble
I believe in God and I believe in His existence. I also trust in God's ability to see me through life's circumstances. But why do I often doubt God, when I know time and time again He is going to say as His words states, " I will never leave the nor forsake thee."
Well, sometimes that is alot easier said than done. For one we are a very selfish generation, we don't like sharing. With that comes sharing even our burdens and problems with the Lord, we take on this prideful attitude that we can do it on our own and we don't need any help. Then in the long rune we go running to God when we have made a real mess of things expecting Him to pick up the pieces. Why don't we just go to Him first?
He cares for us. I believe that He wants to be involved in every aspect of our lives. Even the most insignificant things that we think He is too busy to handle. He knows the numbers of hairs on my head, so my gracious why wouldn't he want to be involved in every facet of our lives.
I have been through some very eventful and trying times in my life. More than some will every know, but He has proved Himself to be worthy of my praise. He created me and that is enough reason to honor Him. We often wait to do that when we are in pinch or bind and can't see our way out. God is a loving and merciful God and He is always there to pick us right back up out our pit and place us on a solid foundation.
I love Him more and more each day as I get in His word and realize just how much that He does for me. Do you love Him more today than you did yesterday, I hope so!
Well, sometimes that is alot easier said than done. For one we are a very selfish generation, we don't like sharing. With that comes sharing even our burdens and problems with the Lord, we take on this prideful attitude that we can do it on our own and we don't need any help. Then in the long rune we go running to God when we have made a real mess of things expecting Him to pick up the pieces. Why don't we just go to Him first?
He cares for us. I believe that He wants to be involved in every aspect of our lives. Even the most insignificant things that we think He is too busy to handle. He knows the numbers of hairs on my head, so my gracious why wouldn't he want to be involved in every facet of our lives.
I have been through some very eventful and trying times in my life. More than some will every know, but He has proved Himself to be worthy of my praise. He created me and that is enough reason to honor Him. We often wait to do that when we are in pinch or bind and can't see our way out. God is a loving and merciful God and He is always there to pick us right back up out our pit and place us on a solid foundation.
I love Him more and more each day as I get in His word and realize just how much that He does for me. Do you love Him more today than you did yesterday, I hope so!
Monday, April 30, 2012
I am Proud to be a Bee
It is very interesting to teach the teenage Sunday School class. You never know the kind of answers or even questions that you might get from them, but I love it. It keeps in the word and on my toes.
This week I asked them a question if they loved themselves. Two of them responded yes emphatically and the rest just sat there. I was very surprised by the answer and yet very proud for the two of them that do.
We went on to discuss things about why and why not and I realized something so true and real. Social media has our minds so messed up on what is acceptable and what is not that who can blame anyone for not loving themselves. However, we have a Bible that is written through and through that we were created in His image and how can we not love that?
It was a light bulb moment for me. Something so simple yet so surreal. My God created me to be me and there is only one of me. Some may say that is a good thing, but I believe that God wants us to love ourselves because we are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Now I might not like everything about myself. I need to lose weight, I color my hair, and I wish my teeth were whiter, but are those things that make us me? Those our external things and I am talking about the true inner me. The core of who I am.
In the Bible are two great commandments. To love God with all your heart and to love your neighbor as yourself. How can you do the second if you don't love yourself? So if asked again if I loved myself then I would have to raise my hand!
This week I asked them a question if they loved themselves. Two of them responded yes emphatically and the rest just sat there. I was very surprised by the answer and yet very proud for the two of them that do.
We went on to discuss things about why and why not and I realized something so true and real. Social media has our minds so messed up on what is acceptable and what is not that who can blame anyone for not loving themselves. However, we have a Bible that is written through and through that we were created in His image and how can we not love that?
It was a light bulb moment for me. Something so simple yet so surreal. My God created me to be me and there is only one of me. Some may say that is a good thing, but I believe that God wants us to love ourselves because we are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Now I might not like everything about myself. I need to lose weight, I color my hair, and I wish my teeth were whiter, but are those things that make us me? Those our external things and I am talking about the true inner me. The core of who I am.
In the Bible are two great commandments. To love God with all your heart and to love your neighbor as yourself. How can you do the second if you don't love yourself? So if asked again if I loved myself then I would have to raise my hand!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Hello Everyone,
Sorry it has been sooo long since I have posted. It has been a crazy schedule and I bet you thought I had forgotten.
I have been very stable these days. Barely any swings if any that I can recall. I am taking my meds as told too and I have even had surgery since I was on here last. I has a kidney stone removed. I am just not getting over that. It is frustrating though because I don't have all my energy back. I am ready to go and worship the Lord tomorrow in Church with all my Church family that I love so dearly.
I was asked once a very pointed question. Am I happy about or do I even want to be a Preacher's wife? At that time who knows what my answer would have been, but now as I have pondered the thought I whole heartedly say yes! I say yes because my husband has been called to do the most important job in the world, preach the word to people. I know at time it gets crazy with the the visits and phone calls and etc., but that comes with the territory. The eternal reward is far greater than this world could ever afford.
So ladies please support your husband in his ministry endeavors in whatever that capacity may be. He is doing God's work and who are we to stand in the way for that. We are called to be a help mate for him and that is in all things. Even though we may not like it or or the road may be rocky at times, support him in all He does and God will truly reward the both of you as a whole unit.
I know we often look at it that he was the one called and not you, but you can be the one to either make it or break it!
Sorry it has been sooo long since I have posted. It has been a crazy schedule and I bet you thought I had forgotten.
I have been very stable these days. Barely any swings if any that I can recall. I am taking my meds as told too and I have even had surgery since I was on here last. I has a kidney stone removed. I am just not getting over that. It is frustrating though because I don't have all my energy back. I am ready to go and worship the Lord tomorrow in Church with all my Church family that I love so dearly.
I was asked once a very pointed question. Am I happy about or do I even want to be a Preacher's wife? At that time who knows what my answer would have been, but now as I have pondered the thought I whole heartedly say yes! I say yes because my husband has been called to do the most important job in the world, preach the word to people. I know at time it gets crazy with the the visits and phone calls and etc., but that comes with the territory. The eternal reward is far greater than this world could ever afford.
So ladies please support your husband in his ministry endeavors in whatever that capacity may be. He is doing God's work and who are we to stand in the way for that. We are called to be a help mate for him and that is in all things. Even though we may not like it or or the road may be rocky at times, support him in all He does and God will truly reward the both of you as a whole unit.
I know we often look at it that he was the one called and not you, but you can be the one to either make it or break it!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
A Refreshed Bee
I read a statement the other day that really caught my attention. You have to take your garbage out when it gets full. The garbage man does not come in and get it for you. Neither will God! But if we confess it, He has promised to pick it up and throw it away. If you keep it in, your house gets stinky.
So it is the same way with the things that we put in our mind. The kind of music we listen to, the tv shows and movies we watch. What we fill our mind with will come out. Romans 12:2 states, "And be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." Now this is not an instant process. This is a daily transformation of ourselves to be more and more like Jesus.
With depression the mind can get boggled up with negativity and confusion, but "If we live in the Spirit. let us also walk in the Spirit." Galatians 5:25 Satan likes to put snares out there for us and get our focus inwardly and not outwardly on Christ.
From experience, I lived way to many years listening to the voice of the Devil and all his lies. His voice overshadowed anything and everything I knew as a Christian. I believed his lies and therefore he had me in a bondage of depression. My Deliverer set me free by breaking me and molding me into a vessel that can be used for Him.
Now I am not saying that I am perfect by any means nor is God through making and molding me, but I am daily learning how to walk in the Spirit. Now I now that all my problems are not always from being bipolar but some are from being away from the will of God. I still struggle with the issues of being bipolar and the anxiety issues, but if I will remember I have a Father who cares and wants to help me through the storms.
So it is the same way with the things that we put in our mind. The kind of music we listen to, the tv shows and movies we watch. What we fill our mind with will come out. Romans 12:2 states, "And be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." Now this is not an instant process. This is a daily transformation of ourselves to be more and more like Jesus.
With depression the mind can get boggled up with negativity and confusion, but "If we live in the Spirit. let us also walk in the Spirit." Galatians 5:25 Satan likes to put snares out there for us and get our focus inwardly and not outwardly on Christ.
From experience, I lived way to many years listening to the voice of the Devil and all his lies. His voice overshadowed anything and everything I knew as a Christian. I believed his lies and therefore he had me in a bondage of depression. My Deliverer set me free by breaking me and molding me into a vessel that can be used for Him.
Now I am not saying that I am perfect by any means nor is God through making and molding me, but I am daily learning how to walk in the Spirit. Now I now that all my problems are not always from being bipolar but some are from being away from the will of God. I still struggle with the issues of being bipolar and the anxiety issues, but if I will remember I have a Father who cares and wants to help me through the storms.
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