This week every year you can bet I am going to get down. Losing my Mother at such an early age, it sees like I was robbed of so many things. I know as a Christian she is in a better place, but the selfish side of me wants her here. I have so many things to say and so many things I want her to see. I want her to see my niece get married. I want her to see how I am raising my kids like she raised me.
I know I shouldn't rob my boys from a blessing by being upset and down, but losing your Mom is horrible. She is my best friend, besides my husband. She was the most Godly woman I know. She never said an ugly word about anyone. (I needed to take more lessons!) She fought a good fight until the bitter end, but she was tired and ready to meet her maker. So with tears in my eyes and a very heavy heart I try to understand God's reasoning. I wouldn't want her back sick, but I would like just one more of those big special Nana hugs like only she should give.
So if you still have your Mother and you get to enjoy her through many long years cherish every moment. You just don't understand until she is gone what it is like to have something until she is gone. The Lord broke the mold when He made Nana. She was one of a kind. The best friend, Grandma, and Christian friend you could ever imagine. So Mom I love you and miss you terribly, I hope you have a Happy Mother's Day sitting at the feet of Jesus.
I can relate. I dread Mother's Day every year. Now that Mom is gone and my kids are grown and not always with me on Mother's Day, it is just a reminder to me of things that are no more. I'm usually in no frame of mind to "be recognized" with the moms at church, sit through sad songs about mama or hear the obligatory Proverbs 31 or similar sermon on "the perfect Mom" either! This year we will go to my in-laws' church and spend the day with them, but to be honest, my preference would be to "run away" and be by myself on Mother's Day weekend! I will be praying for you and all the moms (and children) who understand your blog and share these feelings, and for grace and strength for myself to make the best of it!
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