I have started a new chapter in my life. I am working from my home part-time. It is only a few hours a week, but it is something. I haven't worked since January 2010. So this is a start! Being bipolar and working it is so hard sometimes because you never know what kind of mood you will be in when you wake up. Is it an up or down day or right in the middle.
I have been doing good for now and now that as the the old song says, "One day at a time sweet Jesus, that's all I'm asking from you." I believe that is all He asks from us who deal with emotional issues. One day at a time! And so maybe it was a not so good day, relish in the fact of what you did get accomplished. The small things like getting out of bed, helping your kids with homework, doing a load of laundry. To many those things might be trivial, but I know those things are gigantic to one who is struggling.
One the issue of doing something, you really don't want to do is a case I struggle with. My anxiety kicks in and my brakes go on and it's like I can't move forward. But I am trying to work on that one whether the outcome of doing it outweighs the struggle and in most cases "Yes!" But I know when you are in that situation, you can't see the end result so you have to rely on trusting in God that He knows your heart. So sometimes I plaster that smile on, most times it is for real, and others times we just can't go there.
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